First, I must admit: I missed a day, just last week. I don't feel bad about it, at all. We were traveling home from visiting family, and I thought I'd draw on the plane. We were flying late at night, and I thought *surely* Julian would sleep, haha... ha... instead, I had to sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star to him approx. 448 times. So I missed a day, I saved a plane full of people from a toddler meltdown, and everything's ok.
The MUCH more remarkable thing is that I haven't missed any other days! I'm on track to hit 365 out of 366 ;)
It makes me happy and so proud to have made it this far. When I set this goal, I knew it was theoretically doable—Crystal Moody was my inspiration, and she’s on her 3rd year—but “theoretically doable” is not the same as actually, physically, literally possible. It really seemed like a fantasy to think I’d still be drawing daily. AND YET! I'm doing it!
And I love it. This has not been a chore for me, it’s something I look forward to (almost) every day. That’s not to say it’s been EASY every day, just that making this time in my day is a joy rather than a chore. Some days, I’m stressed because it’s late and I haven’t gotten to draw yet, and drawing after Julian’s bedtime is definitely not my favorite—but it’s still something I want to do, even when the timing is not ideal. Some days, I don’t know what to draw, and that’s stressful, but I push through because I know that I want to do this.
I love it so much that don’t want to stop at the end of the year. In fact, I hope to draw, or paint or otherwise make art with my hands, every single day for the rest of my life.
Every. Single. Day. for the Rest. of my Life.
I never thought I’d feel that way about anything.
Thoughts on Praise and Compliments
I’ve started to get compliments from friends and acquaintances, “Oh, I had no idea that you had artistic talent!” I usually respond with some sort of awkward “thank you” (and I really am grateful for the kind words). But what I really want to say in response is, "I DON’T." I don’t have talent! I just do it every day. That’s the “secret,” just to do it every day, over and over. Practice is the answer.
I suppose I can agree that I am creative at heart, and that’s a sort of natural talent. It’s not exactly as if I started from nothing. But I greatly dislike the idea that talent and art must go hand-in-hand. There is no talent without the work. The work is everything. The practice is everything.
It’s also awkward for me, when I get this sort of praise, because my work is still so (sosososo) far from where I want it to be. The compliments are heartening and appreciated, but I also think: how can you think this crap is any good?!
Now I believe that my work WILL someday get as good as I want it to be. That’s the difference that this year is making for me. It used to seem impossible that I’d ever be any good, and god but I hate doing things when I’m not good at them. So it always seemed better to just not try. Now I trust in the practice + the process, and I believe in my heart that all I have to do is to just keep doing the work. I think maybe in another year or 2, I might finally get to a better place in my work. I'm ok with that. I'm in it for the long haul.
I am heartened by that famous and fantastic Ira Glass quote about struggling through the creative gap. It really is the single most important concept for any artist or writer or creative. You can read it here or even better, listen to it here… in fact, I recommend for any aspiring artist to listen to Ira Glass speak those words, like, weekly. Go listen, then come back, I'll wait...
There's also an interview with Lisa Congdon on CBTV, where the topic is Creative Happiness. She says:
Knowing that Lisa feels that way, when I admire her work so much, really helps me have perspective. It's always going to be a balance of striving and improving, and not letting anything stop you.
Look below for some samples from my sketchbook from the past few months :) If you want to follow along, I post my sketchbook most days on Instagram, with the hashtag #emilydraws2016 :)